I hate having to pee!!!!! There I am lying in bed on a beautiful rainy Saturday afternoon all warm and snuggly emeshed in peaceful erotic dreams and then this silly urge overtakes everything and drags me back to reality.

Husband and I are having an ongoing battle over the war with Iraq. We both agree Bush is an idiot and hope that all the military will come back in one piece not that that is likely to happen. But he doesn't see what we are doing as a purely evil thing and I do. I love my country and believe deeply in its constitution. And I feel that we have sincerely lost our way. Bush will go down in history as the first president to ever lauch a first strike in a war making us into the war mongerers that everyone else always said we were. He didn't have to make them right. Don't tell me he is just continuing an old conflict even as rationalization it is still bullshit.

Everybody is so hopped up on vengence and I just don't understand it. If I had died in the Towers I would not have wanted he legacy of my death to be the bombing of innocents or the destruction of my children's privacy rights. The patriot act violates our constitution with almost every word. We are holding people without without allowing them access to lawyers or even charging them with crimes. Our government now has powers to spy on everything and everyone even to the point of pulling what we read out of the library.

10 Years ago I went to the local library in Phoenix and asked if I had checked out a certain book and the librarian told me that even they were not allowed to see what I borrowed because that might lead to censorship.

I am truly ashamed these days to be an American. I am not ashamed or mad at the soldiers who are only doing what they are told. To some degree I don't even blame our leaders. I blame the American citizens who have become a bunch of sniveling whiney weak people. The terrorists have already won when we are willing to give up our constitutional rights in exchange for the feeling of safety. Get real people there is no such thing as safety and no matter how many of our rights we allow the government to take people will still die. Its part of life and if somebody wants to kill you bad enough then they will manage to do so. And no amount of reasonable monitoring will protect us and I have no desire to live in a police state.
It is just very sad.

Strangely enough it is seems to be some of the most religious people in this country that are pushing for the killing of others and I don't understand that at all. We aren't supposed to judge or go for vengeance. How come the ten commandments are only important when they are trying to suck religion into public school and how come some out the most outspokenly devout ones always seem to be the most afraid to die. I admit I just don't understand. I believe violence begets violence and that now that we have started down the road to evil it will be many years before we can again hold our heads high as an example for peace and democracy throughout the world.