Monday, July 18, 2011

My daughter recently acquired a young man and she is more frequently than not in his company. He is funny, empathetic, and not bad looking and in general I do not object to him. Other than the fact that he is like all 17 year old males mostly raging hormones.
Before the boy arrived on the scene L was all Harbor Playhouse, homework and naps (but mostly naps). Since it is summer and there is no homework she has become very educated on him.Recently I have noticed that I've been lonely to the extreme, even if L is being angsty she is at the very least, a companion. I never realized just how much I rely on her for company. K is K , and I have come to accept the fact that he is not and very well never will be there to break up my solitude. He is either physically unavailable or mentally absent. It's all that he is capable of and I have stopped asking him to be more than what he is. I do my own thing. He savors his alone time and can more often than not be found hiding in his office.
I have to say the job is really helping but it is rather fast paced and there is no time to really connect with anyone and I am notoriously shitty at making friends. I have put forth some effort in the acquisition of a new friend, not a lot but I have tried (kinda, a little bit). I think that I am just too damn weird for most people.

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