tales from the crypt

Sometimes I get migraines that are so severe that all I can think about is trying to find a dark quiet place to hide from the world. My physician has given me an assortment of medications and I have yet to find anything that will prevent or 100% alleviate the pain. What I have found that works best for me is to drink a coca cola take a Lortab, hide and ride it out. If I am lucky the pain may only last 3-4 hours. I have had some episodes that have lasted days. I am fortunate that I do not have migraines often, I have gone months without a single one,not even a regular headache. Then there are other times where I have a string of them for weeks on end. On the pain scale of 1-10 I would have to say that my typical migraine would have to be about a 8, 9 being labor pains and 10 being pain from a kidney stone. That being said I would not wish that kind of pain on my worst enemy. I can't think of anyone that I dislike enough to give this particular kind of hurt. There are certain medications that I like to have in the house at all times, and aside from the kids stuff Lortab is one of them.

Lindy woke up this morning and had a back ache and sore shoulders (I'm assuming it was from the Rhabdo). I told her I could take her back to the doc early to check her CPK level to make sure that it is not going back up. I offered her a Tylenol, the hospital doc prescribed her Lortab. I never picked up her prescription because I had some at home. I gave her a couple when she first got home from the hospital but then her Dr.told me to discontinue that, so I did. She asked me for one this morning and I told her no that I would have to ask the Dr. first. She was pretty irritable and she told me that she didn't want to miss school and asked again for a Lortab. I asked Kelly what he thought and he agreed that if she was in that much pain we just needed to take her back to the doc. I told him that she had taken a Lortab when his sister was watching her even though I had told her to just take Tylenol. He asked me why we even had it in the house. I explained to him that it was for my headaches (which I have told him before and he didn't agree with). He told me that I didn't need it and that I can just take a Tylenol like everyone else for my headaches. I suggested that we lock it in his office, since Lindy self medicating may be an issue. He said No and yelled at me until I flushed it down the toilet. So we can lock up the guns but not the migraine medicine.

No I don't think that my kid is an addict, I think she is in pain.

I don't have a migraine at the moment so not having the meds is not an issue this second. I can get more and I will because having nothing is not an option, the Lortabs are slightly better than nothing but they help me bear it a little and it hurts to know that he thinks so little of me. I don't like hiding things from him, maybe I will take him to the doctor with me so that he will get it. I want to believe that he just doesn't get it because the alternative is that he just doesn't give a shit.