I don't find the blog particularly appealing without Brandy, just saying. Maybe it was the feedback, or because even this tiny little blip on the web just reminds me so much of her that it is overwhelming. It feels lonely,. like there is something missing, like maybe there is no point. Does that sound silly? I think that she would think so because there is always some point to self expression. Even if the point is just to scream, just to be heard or to amuse. Well it has been over a year since she took off on that rocket ship into outer space. One of the main things that has changed in my life is the fact that I am working, and doing something that I really enjoy, you could say love. I say I love my job when people ask but love is such a strong word. I tend to love easily when it comes to people but saying that I love my occupation or even a hobby that is harder.  I've taken up photography as a hobby and I really love photographing people tormenting my family by chasing them with a camera. I find myself wanting to document the most mundane things. I just want to tell a story with pictures. ` I don't know if I ever would have figured that out that I was a photographer if it were not for this job. When I first saw the ad in the paper I told myself that this was something that I would like to do. They asked for a resume which I didn't really have so I made one. It wasn't difficult. I had no idea how I was going to get my children to school work and pick them up, rides activities and all that entails but I figured it out. I don't miss much with them and the things I do miss are probably those things that I would have tried to avoid anyway.
  I have no idea where this was going but there I've written something.