Fixing a hole

Beatles Lyric's Du'Jour Fixing a hole
"And it really doesn't matter if I'm wrong I'm right Where I belong I'm right Where I belong. "

I feel like I am learning new things, that will help me fix my hole where the rain gets in. Yesterday I did 2 things which under normal circumstances I would have preffered a flogging. (and not a nice flogging either). But at the end of the tasks I thought to myself ,my that was almost pleasant, not wanting to admit that it actually was. Then I asked myself what was different this time around. ME! ME! ME! I was different and that made all the difference. When I first contemplated joining the psuedo cult I listened to these people and initially I noticed that number one they were completely fucked in the head and number two that I had so much in commen with them that I was actually scared which wasn't a real great feeling because it then dawned on me that I may not have a good grasp on sanity. I already see the small changes and they are so welcome. I am regaining my sense of self. Why no one ever suggested this to me before is beyond comprehension.