You rant away and we will rant back at ya I'm sure...I saw a great video, just a quickie, the other day where Oprah was saying a really wise thing about not regretting choices but knowing they are all along your path and just keep going...and know it's worthwhile to get where you need to go. I can't say it as well as she did but it was very inspiring and helpful for that shit.  I know you can do this, positive thinking...action...potential= results=  more positive thinking !!