She was absolutely insane, crazy, wacko, unreasonably unrealistic. When she was told that she basically had no shot in hell of being with the one that makes her soul sing any normal person would take that for what it is but not this girl. Cause she loves  misery. Because she wanted to pine away for him and constantly wonder what was wrong with her and why she was not good enough. Part of her wanted him to go away so she could be free and another part just wanted to be in his orbit in any way she could. This will not end well she thought to herself. Teetering in between unrequited love and platonic devotion. He gave her no cause to or encouragement. He was just himself.