So..... It has been a while. I am currently sitting on a chair on my porch on this early late summer morning. I feel powerless, literally I am without power day 5 compliments of hurricane Harvey. My friend is smoking a cigarette. I would like to say my lover but that is not the case. Sigh... Add him to the list of things that are never going to happen. He is my substitute Yang plus sexual tension. It is more complicated then that even but only because I am making it that way. Because I can take something really simple and beautiful and turn it into a complicated mess. Cause that is how I roll. Awww unrequited lust. The love part is there, mutual kinda maybe or just all in my head. So here I am. Such a different life. More to come, adventure awaits. I'll keep you posted.